Please join me as I visit Les for a “Coffee Chat”, over at the Time Out for Mom blog. Les hosts a wonderful weekly discussion of interesting topics. This is one of my favourite places to hang out. This week Les has asked, “Who are you when no one is watching?”
When I read this, I immediately thought of what my Grampy taught me when I was very small. Grampy was a very devout Southern Baptist. He took me to church, read the Bible to me, and taught me lasting morals and values. His faith in God was strong, and he was steadfast in his beliefs. I have never doubted his or God’s love.
Grampy always told me “You are never alone. No matter what: God always sees you.” This made a profound impression on me as a young girl that has lasted all of my life. I may do something I shouldn’t and think I got away with it, if no one else saw me do it. But, sooner or later it always comes out because God sees everything. And God is just.
This was proven to me when I was four years old. I was told not to take any of the beautiful hard Christmas candy from the fancy bowl, because I always managed to choke on it. This was for my own good, I was told. Of course, this made the candy more desirable because it was now beautiful and forbidden. I took some, hid in the bedroom, stuffed the candy into my mouth, and while thoroughly enjoying my success…I began to choke.
Oh no…see?! Grampy was right! Gasping, I immediately ran to him, sure I was dying! Of course, he saved me. Then, hugging me, he turned me to face him and said, “You took the candy after being told not to, didn’t you? Crime didn’t pay, did it?” Apologizing, I admitted that, “No, crime didn’t pay.” I was sure that God knew what I had done and had told Grampy. God and Grampy were obviously in cahoots.
I still do things that I shouldn’t, or perhaps are not in my best interest. Just like everyone else, I am very human and have made many mistakes throughout my life. I deal with them, learn from them, ask forgiveness where appropriate, and move on. That is all we can do, as humans. However, at the back of my mind is always the knowledge that I am never totally alone in anything I do. God is watching…and so is Grampy.
So, to answer the question posed this week: when alone, I am the same person that I am when I am with other people. I don’t have any weird habits or quirky behaviors that I feel the need to hide. (Not that there’s anything wrong with that.) I am pretty much just “me” 24/7.